Alright folks, its that time once again to write an extremely random, pointless entry. I don’t have too much to talk about on one specific topic, and I feel the need to update. So, what has been going on with me since the last entry?  I’ve calmed down (just a little bit.)

Just forewarn you all, visitors, readers, hostees, etc. I will be up north this weekend. We’re going to Mike’s family cottage on the lake, in Three Lakes, WI.  It’s going to be one of the last times we’ll be able to get up there before Grandpa and Grandma sell it. It’s funny – I have only been up there once before, and I have only been dating Mike four years … I feel like I’m apart of their family already. I also feel as though I’m apart of theirs. So, to know they’re all losing something that means a lot to them, makes me sad too. I mean, I understand why his Grandparents are selling it … Just sad to see it go. Especially because I know how much Nickolas loves it up there. *shrugs* Oh well, ya know? We’re all going up this weekend and staying through Monday. It will be Nickolas, Mikhail, Mike, Mike’s Parents, his brother, his Aunt and Uncle and their kids dogs, and his other Aunt and Uncle and their kids. Which will be nice because Nickolas will have the boys to play with. I really hope its a fun weekend. Then, Mike’s mom, the kids, and I will be going back up on the 13th of June by ourselves for a week! I don’t honestly know if I’ll be able to be apart from Mike for that long … guess we’ll have to see. Since we’ve been dating I have never slept more than one night away from him, and that has only happened once MAYBE twice. Makes me a sad panda.

So the title of this entry is, “Yea, I suck.” because of this reason: I can’t talk! I know its a ‘side effect and/or symptom’ of Bipolar, but fuck it sucks! Basically, my mind overthinks what I’m trying to process to come out of my mouth. For instance, I was explaining to Lynn a story that was told to us at my Grandmother’s birthday party. I was basically trying to say, “Yea, they took one of the two gas cans that were in the garage. One was for the lawn mower, and the other for the snow blower …”  What ended up coming out was: “Yea, they took gas cans out of the garage, one was for the gas station the other for the snow plow …” Then people look at me like I’m crazy and even sometimes laugh because what came out of my mouth was insane. Absolutely insane. It doesn’t make sense to anyone… *sigh* I hate this sometimes.

So, I’ve won a few more sweepstakes recently! I have won a total of (4) “Miller Chill Sun-Chaser Kits” (which include lip balm, sunblock, a bottle cooler, and a bottle opener), (2) Free Movie passes from Coke Rewards.  That’s it actually … I’m hoping a really big win comes soon because I haven’t been winning as much as I was before. I have to fill out anywhere from 75-100 sweepstakes a day. Crazy, I know … but it gives me something to do and you never know when you’re going to hit the grand prize.

I have so much to do yet. I have to pack for myself, Mike, and finish packing for the boys. I need to clean up the house. I also need to go through and figure out what exactly I need on my laptop to work offline. I’ve been busting my ass on the new theme for Coffee ‘n Coupons – but it turned out great.  I asked some friends for their input on the new theme and took their thoughts into consideration and created one main one mashing the two together. I took the crisp cleanliness from the one, and the colors from the other, and smushed it into one theme.  That should hopefully be up and all together by next week (I wouldn’t hold my breath though.)

Alright, that’s all for now. Have a good/safe Memorial Day weekend everyone!

Written on Thursday May 21st, 2009 at 6:38am || Filed under: Family, Life with Bipolar, Sweepstakes ||