Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

2016 – A year in review.

2016 was pretty crazy. Normally on the last few days of the year, I write about my resolutions proposed accomplishments that I achieved throughout the year but I decided to add little something to my annual post. I want to look back and write some of the things that happened this year. I am going […]

Written on Friday, December 30th, 2016 at 4:21pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Anxiety, Coloring, Life with Bipolar, Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || 2 Comments


I am feeling much calmer these past two days. Monday I had work, and I was a wreck before work. Once I was at work and realized no one was going to yell at me for abruptly leaving on Thursday, I relaxed a little bit. My shift was pretty laid back. I worked from 12-4pm […]

Written on Wednesday, August 3rd, 2016 at 9:53am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Home/Cooking || No Comments

Lots of Manias

This is going to be another hodge podge entry for you. A little bit of everything, but I brought photos so it’s all good, right?! So let’s get started. Cleaning Mania I had a huge touch of the cleaning mania bug for about a week or so, then I went to an agitated mania for […]

Written on Friday, July 15th, 2016 at 11:10am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Life with Bipolar || 1 Comment

Brain Dump – Part 1

EDIT: I’m going to come back and cross things off this list as I do them. Even though I wrote the lists out as in order in which I’d like to complete. I did not take into consideration that I would be doing these randomly instead of in order. They just were put in order […]

Written on Monday, July 4th, 2016 at 6:57pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Home/Cooking, Life with Bipolar || 2 Comments

Motivated but Lazy.

That describes my mood to a tee! I am motivated to get some things done but so incredibly lazy and not willing to do anything. Ugh! It starts with the fact that I haven’t done anything today minus tell Mikhail to drink his Miralax and read organizing and cleaning blogs. It started on Thursday. Mikhail […]

Written on Saturday, July 2nd, 2016 at 10:31pm || Filed under: Home/Cooking, Struggles || No Comments


I have been doing a lot of research lately. I came across an article that talked about Mirena IUD birth control being linked to instability in moods and mood swings. I was intrigued. I started looking it up and after reading a bunch of articles I was semi-convinced, my Mirena could have been the cause […]

Written on Thursday, February 25th, 2016 at 9:02am || Filed under: Anxiety, Health, Life with Bipolar || No Comments


Just another manic Monday… only it’s not Monday. Yesterday was Monday, and I had mania – badly! How does one know when they have mania? Well here are the main reasons that give me reason to believe I’m going through a manic phase: restless – I sleep very little when manic. I think that’s what […]

Written on Tuesday, February 9th, 2016 at 1:51pm || Filed under: Life with Bipolar || No Comments

I Need An Introduction

Now that everything is erased and I’m starting over fresh, I need an introduction. Allow me to introduce myself, I am Nikki. That is not my given name but I have an unique way of spelling “Nicole”. I don’t want to broadcast all over Google search engines with my blogs so I’m going to go […]

Written on Monday, October 26th, 2015 at 8:42pm || Filed under: Life with Bipolar, Ohana || No Comments