All Out Of Sorts

I’ve been a mess. This past week has been hell. It’s all been brought upon myself. If I didn’t care about things, life would be so much easier. This is going to be a brain dump post because I simply cannot comprehend a thought that surpasses as something logical. First official week of summer This […]

Written on Thursday, June 15th, 2017 at 7:00pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Parenting || 1 Comment

Ticking Clock

The clock is ticking. Do you hear it? Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. The time is running out. I have so much to think about. Is he not ready? Or is he? Am I the one holding him back from going further? We have two weeks. Time will tell how things go. I don’t know if […]

Written on Wednesday, May 24th, 2017 at 7:59pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

Feeling Ill

I have been so ill lately. It’s an illness I can’t quite pinpoint. Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday were all days I ended up throwing up before work. I was perfectly fine on Tuesday even though I had a very high agenda schedule to do that day. Something at work, this job, that job, any job […]

Written on Saturday, April 29th, 2017 at 3:12pm || Filed under: Parenting, Work || 1 Comment

Things turning around?

I’m in a zone. Picture it – I’ve got my sweats on. I just got the boys on the bus. It’s dark in the house, the only light shining through is the darkness of the gloomy, rainy day outside. The light from my laptop screen is brightening my face. I’ve got my feet up. I’ve […]

Written on Friday, March 17th, 2017 at 8:53am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Coloring, Ohana, Work || 2 Comments

Too-Soon Weekly Recap

I’m writing this a day early. I got antsy. I really don’t even have a lot to write about but I wanted to write this while everything was fresh in my mind. This week was pretty good. It was my first week on the floor by myself. I was cleared to be by myself on […]

Written on Friday, February 24th, 2017 at 3:42pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Parenting, Work || No Comments

Not a Recap

I contemplating writing this entry tomorrow evening and calling it a weekly recap. My problem is that Mike is gone, Mikhail in bed, Nick at a sleepover, and I’m left to fend for myself. With nothing to do, I decided to write this entry now. I got my Discover Weekly Playlist on Spotify playing and […]

Written on Friday, February 17th, 2017 at 10:51pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 1 Comment

One Week.

I have one week before beginning the next chapter of my life. Today starts day one of zen. Heh. I kinda have to laugh at that because today has been anything but zen. I woke up this morning with a chip on my shoulder and just crabby! I was under the impression the boys would […]

Written on Sunday, January 22nd, 2017 at 1:17pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

2016 – A year in review.

2016 was pretty crazy. Normally on the last few days of the year, I write about my resolutions proposed accomplishments that I achieved throughout the year but I decided to add little something to my annual post. I want to look back and write some of the things that happened this year. I am going […]

Written on Friday, December 30th, 2016 at 4:21pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Anxiety, Coloring, Life with Bipolar, Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || 2 Comments

Merry Christmas 2016

This Christmas was filled with a lot of family, presents, food, and fun. I am terrible when it comes time to write about stuff I have to write about like life events and such so I’m going to just post my few of my scrapbook pages that I did for the events over the two […]

Written on Tuesday, December 27th, 2016 at 1:48pm || Filed under: Holidays || No Comments

Busy Week This Has Been

This has been an incredibly busy week. We had Mikhail’s birthday, Nick’s concert, I had work, it’s just been a very busy week. I’ll explain and show off my pretty scrapbook pages I made for the events. That’s how I show off pictures and events now, by showing my scrapbook pages of it. Makes it […]

Written on Friday, December 9th, 2016 at 8:41pm || Filed under: Ohana || No Comments

New Family Member

I want to introduce you all to our newest family member… Lynn surprised us with a kitten on Monday after work. It was found in the yard at Menard’s and they took her to the vet and got her checked out. Everything looked good. She had 3 fleas on her and they removed them and […]

Written on Wednesday, November 9th, 2016 at 1:39pm || Filed under: Home/Cooking, Ohana || No Comments

Something New

I’m sick of always coming here talking about how anxious I am about work. Today I’m not going to do that. I am going to talk about other things going on in my life. So buckle up, we’re doing something new today. Nick’s Birthday Nick’s birthday went well. He had a sleepover with his best […]

Written on Tuesday, October 25th, 2016 at 10:30am || Filed under: Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments

Another Worry

Once again, I’m worrying. Nothing new, right? I’m always worrying. It’s annoying how much I worry. At this point, people just go “Oh, Nik is worrying again. Jeez, she needs to take a chill pill.” Ugh! Here’s what’s on my mind tonight… Inventory So, as most of you know, we had inventory at the store […]

Written on Saturday, October 15th, 2016 at 9:29pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Ohana, Parenting || No Comments

Ups and Downs

It has been two weeks since I wrote an actual entry. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs since then. Lack of sleep or lack of sanity may have played a factor in both. School Stuff So the boys have officially been in school two¬†full weeks. Actually, they’ve had a total of six (five, […]

Written on Saturday, September 10th, 2016 at 12:31pm || Filed under: Ohana, Parenting || No Comments

Twas The Night Before…

Twas the night before school started, when all through the town, the parents were cheering… It was a riotous sound! By 9, kids were washed and tucked into bed… Where memories of homework filled them with dread! New pencils, new folders, new notebooks too! New teachers, new friends…Their anxiety grew! The parents just giggled when […]

Written on Wednesday, August 31st, 2016 at 9:19am || Filed under: Ohana, Parenting || No Comments

Busy Week

It’s been an incredibly busy week. I’ll rewind all the way back to last Friday… Our Weekend Away Last Friday, I had to work. We found out on Thursday it may be the last time we would be able to see Grandpa (Mike’s) and Mike wanted me to pack a bag and ready to go. […]

Written on Saturday, August 27th, 2016 at 4:55pm || Filed under: Coloring, Ohana || 1 Comment

State Fair and More Fun

So this week has been harsh. I ruptured my ear drum on Tuesday. I went to Urgent Care and had the normal doctor, who is always there, say that he couldn’t even see in my ear to see if it was ruptured. He wrote me out a prescription for an antibiotic that he ALWAYS writes […]

Written on Saturday, August 13th, 2016 at 12:15pm || Filed under: Coloring, Health, Ohana || No Comments

One Week Later

So it’s been a week since I last wrote. I did not take the time to read my last post so I don’t entirely know what I wrote about other than writing about work. I guess I wanted to give a short little update since then. Work Life So, I worked Tuesday-Thursday this week in […]

Written on Friday, July 29th, 2016 at 4:30pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Anxiety || 1 Comment

Moments Peace

I have a few moments peace right now. The boys are in summer school. I am doing laundry and cleaned up the kitchen this morning. Yesterday was interesting. Mikhail woke up with the moans and groans, and of course, the growls. He didn’t want to go to summer school. Lovely. He was super excited about […]

Written on Tuesday, June 14th, 2016 at 9:40am || Filed under: Friends, Parenting || No Comments