All Out Of Sorts

I’ve been a mess. This past week has been hell. It’s all been brought upon myself. If I didn’t care about things, life would be so much easier. This is going to be a brain dump post because I simply cannot comprehend a thought that surpasses as something logical. First official week of summer This […]

Written on Thursday, June 15th, 2017 at 7:00pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Parenting || 1 Comment

Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

Feeling Ill

I have been so ill lately. It’s an illness I can’t quite pinpoint. Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday were all days I ended up throwing up before work. I was perfectly fine on Tuesday even though I had a very high agenda schedule to do that day. Something at work, this job, that job, any job […]

Written on Saturday, April 29th, 2017 at 3:12pm || Filed under: Parenting, Work || 1 Comment

Not a Recap

I contemplating writing this entry tomorrow evening and calling it a weekly recap. My problem is that Mike is gone, Mikhail in bed, Nick at a sleepover, and I’m left to fend for myself. With nothing to do, I decided to write this entry now. I got my Discover Weekly Playlist on Spotify playing and […]

Written on Friday, February 17th, 2017 at 10:51pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 1 Comment

One Week.

I have one week before beginning the next chapter of my life. Today starts day one of zen. Heh. I kinda have to laugh at that because today has been anything but zen. I woke up this morning with a chip on my shoulder and just crabby! I was under the impression the boys would […]

Written on Sunday, January 22nd, 2017 at 1:17pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

2016 – A year in review.

2016 was pretty crazy. Normally on the last few days of the year, I write about my resolutions proposed accomplishments that I achieved throughout the year but I decided to add little something to my annual post. I want to look back and write some of the things that happened this year. I am going […]

Written on Friday, December 30th, 2016 at 4:21pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Anxiety, Coloring, Life with Bipolar, Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || 2 Comments

Something New

I’m sick of always coming here talking about how anxious I am about work. Today I’m not going to do that. I am going to talk about other things going on in my life. So buckle up, we’re doing something new today. Nick’s Birthday Nick’s birthday went well. He had a sleepover with his best […]

Written on Tuesday, October 25th, 2016 at 10:30am || Filed under: Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments

Another Worry

Once again, I’m worrying. Nothing new, right? I’m always worrying. It’s annoying how much I worry. At this point, people just go “Oh, Nik is worrying again. Jeez, she needs to take a chill pill.” Ugh! Here’s what’s on my mind tonight… Inventory So, as most of you know, we had inventory at the store […]

Written on Saturday, October 15th, 2016 at 9:29pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Ohana, Parenting || No Comments

Moments Peace

I have a few moments peace right now. The boys are in summer school. I am doing laundry and cleaned up the kitchen this morning. Yesterday was interesting. Mikhail woke up with the moans and groans, and of course, the growls. He didn’t want to go to summer school. Lovely. He was super excited about […]

Written on Tuesday, June 14th, 2016 at 9:40am || Filed under: Friends, Parenting || No Comments


I have been incredibly overwhelmed the past few weeks. I feel like everyone has these such high standards for me to take on and I cannot even come close to meeting them. They want the house to look a certain way. They want the kids acting a certain way. I need to find a job […]

Written on Tuesday, May 17th, 2016 at 10:35am || Filed under: Anxiety, Struggles || No Comments


It’s been almost a week since I had last wrote. I guess, I thought I’d update you all with what’s been going on in my neck of the woods. For the most part, it’s been a rollercoaster ride since Tuesday. What I thought was getting better isn’t, or getting worse. What I thought was getting […]

Written on Wednesday, March 30th, 2016 at 7:53pm || Filed under: Health || No Comments


So probably not what you’d think this entry is going to be about… but Nick… is getting stronger. He’s growing big and strong. He’s nearly taller than me. In fact, it will only be a few more months before he his looking down towards me instead of me looking down at him. This is all good and […]

Written on Tuesday, February 23rd, 2016 at 8:17am || Filed under: Parenting, Struggles || No Comments

Been Busy!

I have been incredibly busy lately. I started a new website – Frugal Heart and have been working extremely hard on it the past week. I got the layout all done and social networking links up. I started writing content for it which is long winded articles. I know I shouldn’t write the best articles for […]

Written on Friday, December 4th, 2015 at 11:08am || Filed under: Anxiety, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments


So I got in to it with Nick’s dad yesterday. I have been contemplating trying to get full custody for Nick. For the main reason that Matt has been disappearing the past few months/years. What happens if something happens to Nick and I need to make decisions regarding his well being and Matt is M.I.A? […]

Written on Tuesday, November 10th, 2015 at 12:57pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments


I contemplated writing this yesterday but decided to wait until I had my coffee, some music, some time without any interruptions, and a clear mind. I think I prefer it this way. I like writing while the boys are either at school or while they’re in bed. I can concentrate so much more. I also […]

Written on Friday, October 30th, 2015 at 9:11am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Ohana, Parenting || No Comments

Grounded And Weekend Stuff

This is going to be a hodge podge of nonsense. I just want to update everyone myself what’s going on. I mean, I am the only one who reads this so what’s the point of saying anyone anymore, right? Actually, I wanted to talk about that. I am contemplating deleting my old entries from being online but […]

Written on Sunday, October 25th, 2015 at 1:16pm || Filed under: Ohana, Parenting, Site Updates || No Comments