Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

Weekly Recap | 10 | Terrible Week

Talk about a TERRIBLE week! I have pictures from the entire week. I don’t know if I’m going to make a Project Life 52 page for this week because things were mostly bad and I mainly took pictures of myself – typical – but we’ll see. So here’s what happened, brace yourselves… Sunday Sunday we […]

Written on Saturday, March 11th, 2017 at 8:08am || Filed under: Anxiety, Coloring, Health, Struggles, Work || 1 Comment

2016 – A year in review.

2016 was pretty crazy. Normally on the last few days of the year, I write about my resolutions proposed accomplishments that I achieved throughout the year but I decided to add little something to my annual post. I want to look back and write some of the things that happened this year. I am going […]

Written on Friday, December 30th, 2016 at 4:21pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Anxiety, Coloring, Life with Bipolar, Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || 2 Comments

Something New

I’m sick of always coming here talking about how anxious I am about work. Today I’m not going to do that. I am going to talk about other things going on in my life. So buckle up, we’re doing something new today. Nick’s Birthday Nick’s birthday went well. He had a sleepover with his best […]

Written on Tuesday, October 25th, 2016 at 10:30am || Filed under: Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments


I’m sitting here, the boys are in bed watching their tablets, Mike has gone because it’s Saturday and that’s what he does, and I’m listening to music, with a full belly, bored out of my mind. That was a run-on sentence, but I honestly don’t know how else I’d write it. Whatever, I suck at […]

Written on Saturday, May 28th, 2016 at 10:07pm || Filed under: Struggles || No Comments


I have been incredibly overwhelmed the past few weeks. I feel like everyone has these such high standards for me to take on and I cannot even come close to meeting them. They want the house to look a certain way. They want the kids acting a certain way. I need to find a job […]

Written on Tuesday, May 17th, 2016 at 10:35am || Filed under: Anxiety, Struggles || No Comments

Almost All Set.

I am almost all ready to rock and roll with my surgery. I went to see the doctor yesterday who will be doing the surgery for my pre-op appointment. It was pretty laid back. She explained essentially what we’re doing and how everything worked. She will be cutting me at my belly button and putting […]

Written on Wednesday, April 27th, 2016 at 9:04am || Filed under: Health, Life with Bipolar || No Comments


It’s been almost a week since I had last wrote. I guess, I thought I’d update you all with what’s been going on in my neck of the woods. For the most part, it’s been a rollercoaster ride since Tuesday. What I thought was getting better isn’t, or getting worse. What I thought was getting […]

Written on Wednesday, March 30th, 2016 at 7:53pm || Filed under: Health || No Comments


I have been doing a lot of research lately. I came across an article that talked about Mirena IUD birth control being linked to instability in moods and mood swings. I was intrigued. I started looking it up and after reading a bunch of articles I was semi-convinced, my Mirena could have been the cause […]

Written on Thursday, February 25th, 2016 at 9:02am || Filed under: Anxiety, Health, Life with Bipolar || No Comments

Freaking The FUCK Out

I can’t tell anyone… what I really feel. I have to be strong. I have to put on a brave face and be strong for Mike. He already said he was super nervous about this entire trip and doing everything on his own. I can’t show any doubt or worry in my voice when I […]

Written on Tuesday, January 19th, 2016 at 7:37pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Love || No Comments

Been Busy!

I have been incredibly busy lately. I started a new website – Frugal Heart and have been working extremely hard on it the past week. I got the layout all done and social networking links up. I started writing content for it which is long winded articles. I know I shouldn’t write the best articles for […]

Written on Friday, December 4th, 2015 at 11:08am || Filed under: Anxiety, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments

I Need An Introduction

Now that everything is erased and I’m starting over fresh, I need an introduction. Allow me to introduce myself, I am Nikki. That is not my given name but I have an unique way of spelling “Nicole”. I don’t want to broadcast all over Google search engines with my blogs so I’m going to go […]

Written on Monday, October 26th, 2015 at 8:42pm || Filed under: Life with Bipolar, Ohana || No Comments