Ticking Clock

The clock is ticking. Do you hear it? Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. The time is running out. I have so much to think about. Is he not ready? Or is he? Am I the one holding him back from going further? We have two weeks. Time will tell how things go. I don’t know if […]

Written on Wednesday, May 24th, 2017 at 7:59pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

Trying Something New… We’ll See.

In the recent days, I’ve realized something. Mike has some pretty amazing friends. Sure, his friends are my friends, but they’re not like really my friends, ya know? We’re acquaintances. It’s not like I text them or message them privately, no. I talk to them when I’m in also in the presence of Mike too. What […]

Written on Saturday, May 6th, 2017 at 10:44pm || Filed under: Friends, Struggles || 2 Comments

Things turning around?

I’m in a zone. Picture it – I’ve got my sweats on. I just got the boys on the bus. It’s dark in the house, the only light shining through is the darkness of the gloomy, rainy day outside. The light from my laptop screen is brightening my face. I’ve got my feet up. I’ve […]

Written on Friday, March 17th, 2017 at 8:53am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Coloring, Ohana, Work || 2 Comments

Too-Soon Weekly Recap

I’m writing this a day early. I got antsy. I really don’t even have a lot to write about but I wanted to write this while everything was fresh in my mind. This week was pretty good. It was my first week on the floor by myself. I was cleared to be by myself on […]

Written on Friday, February 24th, 2017 at 3:42pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Parenting, Work || No Comments

Busy Body.

So much time and so little to do! Strike that. Reverse. My planner has been filled with to-dos all week. I have written everything I need to do over the course of this week. For the most part, actually not really, I haven’t followed the scheduled planned to-dos for this week at all. Here is […]

Written on Wednesday, January 25th, 2017 at 12:36pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Coloring, Work || 2 Comments

One Week.

I have one week before beginning the next chapter of my life. Today starts day one of zen. Heh. I kinda have to laugh at that because today has been anything but zen. I woke up this morning with a chip on my shoulder and just crabby! I was under the impression the boys would […]

Written on Sunday, January 22nd, 2017 at 1:17pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

I got the job!

It’s official. I got the phone call last night. It was from Erika, the other team lead. She said that she wanted to offer me the position. She said whatever hours I wanted they were willing to do whatever. She asked if I wanted to be a part of the AM or PM class. I […]

Written on Tuesday, January 10th, 2017 at 12:40pm || Filed under: Work || 2 Comments

Feeling Christmasy

Tis the season. I’m going to do my best to stay on track while writing this entry. My mind is all over the place and I finally have a day off where I don’t have someone who is home sick with me. I’m taking it in with Lindsay Sterling Radio on Spotify. I have quite […]

Written on Wednesday, November 30th, 2016 at 3:35pm || Filed under: Home/Cooking, Ohana || No Comments

Something New

I’m sick of always coming here talking about how anxious I am about work. Today I’m not going to do that. I am going to talk about other things going on in my life. So buckle up, we’re doing something new today. Nick’s Birthday Nick’s birthday went well. He had a sleepover with his best […]

Written on Tuesday, October 25th, 2016 at 10:30am || Filed under: Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments

Calmer

I am feeling much calmer these past two days. Monday I had work, and I was a wreck before work. Once I was at work and realized no one was going to yell at me for abruptly leaving on Thursday, I relaxed a little bit. My shift was pretty laid back. I worked from 12-4pm […]

Written on Wednesday, August 3rd, 2016 at 9:53am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Home/Cooking || No Comments

Lots of Manias

This is going to be another hodge podge entry for you. A little bit of everything, but I brought photos so it’s all good, right?! So let’s get started. Cleaning Mania I had a huge touch of the cleaning mania bug for about a week or so, then I went to an agitated mania for […]

Written on Friday, July 15th, 2016 at 11:10am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Life with Bipolar || 1 Comment

Manic … Friday.

I wanted to sing, “Just another manic Monday, whoa whoa. Wish it was Sunday! That’s my fun day! Whoa Whoa. Just another manic Monday.” You’re welcome for putting that song in your head now. I am really, really, manic. I’m like the good manic though. I call this mania, the cleaning mania. I get SO much cleaning […]

Written on Friday, July 8th, 2016 at 8:43am || Filed under: Life with Bipolar || 1 Comment

Brain Dump – Part 1

EDIT: I’m going to come back and cross things off this list as I do them. Even though I wrote the lists out as in order in which I’d like to complete. I did not take into consideration that I would be doing these randomly instead of in order. They just were put in order […]

Written on Monday, July 4th, 2016 at 6:57pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Home/Cooking, Life with Bipolar || 2 Comments

Motivated but Lazy.

That describes my mood to a tee! I am motivated to get some things done but so incredibly lazy and not willing to do anything. Ugh! It starts with the fact that I haven’t done anything today minus tell Mikhail to drink his Miralax and read organizing and cleaning blogs. It started on Thursday. Mikhail […]

Written on Saturday, July 2nd, 2016 at 10:31pm || Filed under: Home/Cooking, Struggles || No Comments

Moments Peace

I have a few moments peace right now. The boys are in summer school. I am doing laundry and cleaned up the kitchen this morning. Yesterday was interesting. Mikhail woke up with the moans and groans, and of course, the growls. He didn’t want to go to summer school. Lovely. He was super excited about […]

Written on Tuesday, June 14th, 2016 at 9:40am || Filed under: Friends, Parenting || No Comments

Overwhelmed.

I have been incredibly overwhelmed the past few weeks. I feel like everyone has these such high standards for me to take on and I cannot even come close to meeting them. They want the house to look a certain way. They want the kids acting a certain way. I need to find a job […]

Written on Tuesday, May 17th, 2016 at 10:35am || Filed under: Anxiety, Struggles || No Comments

New Dentist.

Nick is going to a new dentist today. We were able to find him a dentist office that accepts our insurance. I just hope and pray it’s not like all the others that treat their customers like shit just because of the insurance they have. I’m hoping because of the location of this office it […]

Written on Tuesday, May 10th, 2016 at 8:52am || Filed under: Health, Parenting || No Comments

Manic?

Ok, first things first… I feel incredibly better than I felt previously. Monday was an OK day. I felt a little better and was able to eat most of the day without feeling sick or rushing to the bathroom. Tuesday, I woke up with a great feeling. My coffee went down smoothly without being sick. I was […]

Written on Wednesday, May 4th, 2016 at 10:06am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Home/Cooking || 1 Comment

Almost All Set.

I am almost all ready to rock and roll with my surgery. I went to see the doctor yesterday who will be doing the surgery for my pre-op appointment. It was pretty laid back. She explained essentially what we’re doing and how everything worked. She will be cutting me at my belly button and putting […]

Written on Wednesday, April 27th, 2016 at 9:04am || Filed under: Health, Life with Bipolar || No Comments

Boredom.

I AM SO BORED! I simply don’t feel like doing anything. My chores, for the most part, are done. I have minor things I could do but it would seriously take me less than 10 minutes to do everything. So why not just do that 10 minutes of work!? Because I’m a rebel without a cause! No seriously, […]

Written on Wednesday, April 20th, 2016 at 10:10am || Filed under: Home/Cooking, Site Updates || 1 Comment