Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

Monthly Recap | March 2017

I really slacked at writing this past month. I wrote three times in the month of March. Either I didn’t feel the need to write or I got lazy, either way, it didn’t happen. So, here I sit, writing a blog post while I listen to my Discovery Weekly Spotify playlist. Mikhail is home sick […]

Written on Tuesday, April 4th, 2017 at 9:11am || Filed under: Anxiety, Ohana, Work || 3 Comments

Weekly Recap | 10 | Terrible Week

Talk about a TERRIBLE week! I have pictures from the entire week. I don’t know if I’m going to make a Project Life 52 page for this week because things were mostly bad and I mainly took pictures of myself – typical – but we’ll see. So here’s what happened, brace yourselves… Sunday Sunday we […]

Written on Saturday, March 11th, 2017 at 8:08am || Filed under: Anxiety, Coloring, Health, Struggles, Work || 1 Comment

Piecing The Puzzle Together

Slowly but surely I am piecing the puzzle pieces together. I received my acceptance/offer letter in the email yesterday. It included what documents I needed for my first day, paperwork for my drug test, parking information, and my official letter of offering from the company. The letter from the company basically told me congratulations, what […]

Written on Wednesday, January 11th, 2017 at 2:48pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 2 Comments

Interviewed.

Well, I did it. I went to my interview. The outcome? I have no idea. I think it went well but I won’t know for sure until they decide they’re going to call me back and let me know. You know it’s a good sign when BOTH team leaders come up to you like, “Oh, […]

Written on Tuesday, January 3rd, 2017 at 12:31pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 2 Comments

2017 Proposed Accomplishments

It’s that time when I create my list of resolutions proposed accomplishments. I say proposed accomplishments instead of resolutions because I feel saying resolutions only sets you up for failure. You say you’re going to do these big, scary, audacious goals and then by Feb. you realized you haven’t achieved anything. If I say proposed accomplishments, […]

Written on Sunday, January 1st, 2017 at 2:00pm || Filed under: Accomplishments || No Comments

Feeling Christmasy

Tis the season. I’m going to do my best to stay on track while writing this entry. My mind is all over the place and I finally have a day off where I don’t have someone who is home sick with me. I’m taking it in with Lindsay Sterling Radio on Spotify. I have quite […]

Written on Wednesday, November 30th, 2016 at 3:35pm || Filed under: Home/Cooking, Ohana || No Comments

State Fair and More Fun

So this week has been harsh. I ruptured my ear drum on Tuesday. I went to Urgent Care and had the normal doctor, who is always there, say that he couldn’t even see in my ear to see if it was ruptured. He wrote me out a prescription for an antibiotic that he ALWAYS writes […]

Written on Saturday, August 13th, 2016 at 12:15pm || Filed under: Coloring, Health, Ohana || No Comments

Calmer

I am feeling much calmer these past two days. Monday I had work, and I was a wreck before work. Once I was at work and realized no one was going to yell at me for abruptly leaving on Thursday, I relaxed a little bit. My shift was pretty laid back. I worked from 12-4pm […]

Written on Wednesday, August 3rd, 2016 at 9:53am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Home/Cooking || No Comments

Brain Dump – Part 2

It is that time once again… I need to do another brain dump. It’s crazy how much has been running through my mind these past few days and I didn’t think to come to write about it. Well, here I am, another post that is going to be all over the place. I’m manic so […]

Written on Tuesday, July 12th, 2016 at 6:29pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Struggles || 3 Comments

Motivated but Lazy.

That describes my mood to a tee! I am motivated to get some things done but so incredibly lazy and not willing to do anything. Ugh! It starts with the fact that I haven’t done anything today minus tell Mikhail to drink his Miralax and read organizing and cleaning blogs. It started on Thursday. Mikhail […]

Written on Saturday, July 2nd, 2016 at 10:31pm || Filed under: Home/Cooking, Struggles || No Comments

Quickly Posting

I decided to write a quick blog here today. It is REALLY hard to keep up with three (3) THREE blogs at a time. It was definitely a moment of when mania attacks that possessed me to have three blogs at a time. I guess it kinda works out, though. I talk about my friends and […]

Written on Thursday, June 30th, 2016 at 10:32am || Filed under: Life with Bipolar || No Comments

“Normal Person”

Well, I made it. Two weeks since my surgery. I did it. I got my tubes tied and I will no longer have periods. All is said and done. I’d be lying if it didn’t dawn on me at least once or twice I will never have another child again. A small part of me felt a […]

Written on Wednesday, June 1st, 2016 at 9:59am || Filed under: Health, Life with Bipolar || No Comments

Post Op.

Well, I did it. I had my surgery. It’s all said and done and put behind me now. We went to the hospital around 8:30 yesterday morning. We got checked in and I changed into my gown. The anesthesiologist came in first and talked to me and said he’d wait for the IV until it […]

Written on Thursday, May 19th, 2016 at 12:00pm || Filed under: Health || No Comments

New Dentist.

Nick is going to a new dentist today. We were able to find him a dentist office that accepts our insurance. I just hope and pray it’s not like all the others that treat their customers like shit just because of the insurance they have. I’m hoping because of the location of this office it […]

Written on Tuesday, May 10th, 2016 at 8:52am || Filed under: Health, Parenting || No Comments

Manic?

Ok, first things first… I feel incredibly better than I felt previously. Monday was an OK day. I felt a little better and was able to eat most of the day without feeling sick or rushing to the bathroom. Tuesday, I woke up with a great feeling. My coffee went down smoothly without being sick. I was […]

Written on Wednesday, May 4th, 2016 at 10:06am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Home/Cooking || 1 Comment

Stressed Out.

I have been SO incredibly stressed out. All last week I was freaking the hell out thinking that I was pregnant and getting myself SICK WITH WORRY. Well, Friday was my ultrasound. It went alright. I had to go in for an outer ultrasound with a FULL bladder, then go to the bathroom and do an […]

Written on Monday, May 2nd, 2016 at 11:39am || Filed under: Anxiety, Health || No Comments

Almost All Set.

I am almost all ready to rock and roll with my surgery. I went to see the doctor yesterday who will be doing the surgery for my pre-op appointment. It was pretty laid back. She explained essentially what we’re doing and how everything worked. She will be cutting me at my belly button and putting […]

Written on Wednesday, April 27th, 2016 at 9:04am || Filed under: Health, Life with Bipolar || No Comments

Busy.

Hi, everyone. I don’t know what I last wrote about. I suppose I should check that out before I continue. — Ok. I’m caught up. So, here’s what has happened since Sunday evening. – Not much! Monday morning was uneventful. We got the boys off to school and Mike didn’t need to start work until […]

Written on Wednesday, April 6th, 2016 at 9:35am || Filed under: Anxiety, Coloring, Health, Home/Cooking || 1 Comment

Spring Break.

Spring Break is coming to a close here. We’re on the eve of the day the boys return back to school. Overall, I’d say this spring break was pretty successful. Aside from being absolutely miserable almost the entire duration, I’d say we got a lot done. The boys didn’t kill each other. They played outside […]

Written on Sunday, April 3rd, 2016 at 6:53pm || Filed under: Health, Ohana || No Comments