I’ve been slacking

I have been really slacking these past few weeks with this blog. I notice in previous years past when I was working I did the same thing. I hardly post during the times I’m working. Then years later, I go back and read the posts near the end (Aug – October) to find out how […]

Written on Wednesday, August 23rd, 2017 at 8:13pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || No Comments

Perfectionism Sucks!

Can I just say how utterly exhausting it is to try to be perfect at all times? I say try with the most emphasis as I can because there is no one single human being who is perfect, and I understand this, yet here I am every single day trying to be just that. It is reflected […]

Written on Saturday, July 22nd, 2017 at 8:51am || Filed under: Work || No Comments

Wait, do I need to be fixed?

So, recently, during the time I’m not blogging like I should, I have been listening to this podcast called the “Anxiety Coaches Podcast”. I’ve learned a lot from it so far. I was listening yesterday while deciding to color for the first time in weeks and had a few inspiration spikes in my mind. I […]

Written on Saturday, July 15th, 2017 at 10:35am || Filed under: Accomplishments, Work || 1 Comment

All Out Of Sorts

I’ve been a mess. This past week has been hell. It’s all been brought upon myself. If I didn’t care about things, life would be so much easier. This is going to be a brain dump post because I simply cannot comprehend a thought that surpasses as something logical. First official week of summer This […]

Written on Thursday, June 15th, 2017 at 7:00pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Parenting || 1 Comment

Ticking Clock

The clock is ticking. Do you hear it? Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. The time is running out. I have so much to think about. Is he not ready? Or is he? Am I the one holding him back from going further? We have two weeks. Time will tell how things go. I don’t know if […]

Written on Wednesday, May 24th, 2017 at 7:59pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

Feeling Ill

I have been so ill lately. It’s an illness I can’t quite pinpoint. Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday were all days I ended up throwing up before work. I was perfectly fine on Tuesday even though I had a very high agenda schedule to do that day. Something at work, this job, that job, any job […]

Written on Saturday, April 29th, 2017 at 3:12pm || Filed under: Parenting, Work || 1 Comment

Just In Time

So, I think I was able to nip the mania in the butt, just in time. Not without a major blowout fight with Mike first. Totally my fault, I started it, I ended it. It was unnecessary and I picked a fight with him on Easter Sunday. We didn’t scream or shout, no, we fought […]

Written on Friday, April 21st, 2017 at 6:34pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Life with Bipolar || 2 Comments

Rough Week

This was an incredibly rough week. I spiked a mania high. Tis the season. It’s getting warm outside. The sun is out later. Mania comes with the season of spring and summer. It was only natural that I would start climbing higher and higher. Monday was rough. I went to work and had full intentions […]

Written on Saturday, April 15th, 2017 at 9:29pm || Filed under: Life with Bipolar || 1 Comment

Monthly Recap | March 2017

I really slacked at writing this past month. I wrote three times in the month of March. Either I didn’t feel the need to write or I got lazy, either way, it didn’t happen. So, here I sit, writing a blog post while I listen to my Discovery Weekly Spotify playlist. Mikhail is home sick […]

Written on Tuesday, April 4th, 2017 at 9:11am || Filed under: Anxiety, Ohana, Work || 3 Comments

Weekly Recap | 10 | Terrible Week

Talk about a TERRIBLE week! I have pictures from the entire week. I don’t know if I’m going to make a Project Life 52 page for this week because things were mostly bad and I mainly took pictures of myself – typical – but we’ll see. So here’s what happened, brace yourselves… Sunday Sunday we […]

Written on Saturday, March 11th, 2017 at 8:08am || Filed under: Anxiety, Coloring, Health, Struggles, Work || 1 Comment

Weekly Recap | Week 09

Although the week is not through, I thought I’d come and write my weekly recap anyway. I promise to not only talk about work. The week started off right. I was starting my own shift this week. I was worried how having to stay until 4 pm would affect me compared to getting out at […]

Written on Saturday, March 4th, 2017 at 8:44am || Filed under: Coloring, Ohana, Work || 1 Comment

Needs Its Own Post

So Monday was difficult and trying all at the same time. I think this calls for its own personal post. It started off great. I woke up shortly after 4 am. I couldn’t get much more sleep. I had gone to bed at 8:10 pm the previous night and I felt as though I had […]

Written on Tuesday, February 28th, 2017 at 9:15am || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 2 Comments

Not a Recap

I contemplating writing this entry tomorrow evening and calling it a weekly recap. My problem is that Mike is gone, Mikhail in bed, Nick at a sleepover, and I’m left to fend for myself. With nothing to do, I decided to write this entry now. I got my Discover Weekly Playlist on Spotify playing and […]

Written on Friday, February 17th, 2017 at 10:51pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 1 Comment

Monthly Recap | January 2017

I want to start something new. I want to do a monthly recap on the 1st (or close to it) of every month of the previous month. This recap will capture what had happened in the month of January 2017. January was a trying month. So much had happened. I had my interview with DHL […]

Written on Wednesday, February 1st, 2017 at 4:00pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 2 Comments

This is it.

Well, everyone, the time has come. It’s Sunday. You know what that means… Tomorrow I begin training at DHL Everything is all set. HR called me on FRIDAY(!) and informed me that I was 100% good to go and everything checked out with my drug test so I was able to start on Monday at […]

Written on Sunday, January 29th, 2017 at 11:50am || Filed under: Coloring, Work || 2 Comments

Piecing The Puzzle Together

Slowly but surely I am piecing the puzzle pieces together. I received my acceptance/offer letter in the email yesterday. It included what documents I needed for my first day, paperwork for my drug test, parking information, and my official letter of offering from the company. The letter from the company basically told me congratulations, what […]

Written on Wednesday, January 11th, 2017 at 2:48pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 2 Comments

I got the job!

It’s official. I got the phone call last night. It was from Erika, the other team lead. She said that she wanted to offer me the position. She said whatever hours I wanted they were willing to do whatever. She asked if I wanted to be a part of the AM or PM class. I […]

Written on Tuesday, January 10th, 2017 at 12:40pm || Filed under: Work || 2 Comments

Nervous

It’s only been a week, Nik. Not even if you want to be technical about it. They technically have until March 20th to get back to you. HOLD YOUR HORSES! I am nervous. I am worried they’re not going to call me back about this job. I waited all week long for the phone call […]

Written on Sunday, January 8th, 2017 at 12:48pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Holidays, Ohana || No Comments

Interviewed.

Well, I did it. I went to my interview. The outcome? I have no idea. I think it went well but I won’t know for sure until they decide they’re going to call me back and let me know. You know it’s a good sign when BOTH team leaders come up to you like, “Oh, […]

Written on Tuesday, January 3rd, 2017 at 12:31pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Work || 2 Comments