Sometimes, I just want to be grumpy. Dammit!
Do you ever have those days, were you just want to be grumpy? You might rant to someone, but instead of them sitting there trying to cheer you up, they instead say something like, “I’m sorry” and leave it at that. That’s exactly how I felt yesterday. I decided to update my status on Myspace to read something like, “God, just let this crappy Christmas end already.” Man, unleash the hounds! I got about five comments asking why it was such a crappy Christmas. Well, let’s review this year’s Christmas, shall we?I didn’t work all year. Let me rephrase that, I haven’t worked since March of this year. Obviously, we’re broke and not rollin’ in the dough. Before one of you says it, I’m well aware its not all about the money. Nor, is it all about the presents… which I continue on. We weren’t able to get the kids very much this year. We bought Nickolas about seven or eight things. [These include; Hulk Hands, G.I Joe little guy things, Hulk bath tub set, a giant bucket of dinosaurs, three puzzles, and some other things that I cannot remember at the moment.] So, we got him something to open on Christmas Day. Although, its not a lot, its something. I understand that, but its still disappointing. I want to give my kids the best, and this year, we’re just not able to do that. Again, I understand, its not all about the presents. I know! When you spend Christmas with your own children, you want the best. When you’re unable to give the best, there’s disappointment.Another reason why this isn’t a great Christmas is because things are so insanely different. Normal Christmas tradition was the following; Christmas Eve we would spend with Mike’s entire family. Christmas Morning he would drop me and Nickolas off at my Dad’s house. We’d go and have breakfast together. Mike would come around noon and we’d head over to wherever we were spending Christmas with my Dad’s family. We would then get together with ALL of my Dad’s family. Afterwards, we’d go back to Mike’s parents house and open up presents there. This year, that completely isn’t happening. We aren’t having Christmas breakfast and the ONLY people I’m going to see from my Dad’s side of the family is my grandparents. Now, don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with that. Its just crappy. Which is why I said its going to be a crappy Christmas. Now, I made the mistake of telling people these reasons. “Well, I’m not going to spend it with all the family.” and their reply was, “Well, spend it with your family. You have your own family now.” Well, no shit! I’m not saying I don’t have my own family. I’m not saying I’m unhappy at the fact that I only have to spend Christmas with my boys and a small amount of my Dad’s family – I’m saying it’s crappy! God, I hate when people argue stuff like that with me. “Well, if your traditions are different this year, then make new ones.” Great! Sounds like a great idea. Which is fine, but it still SUCKS that the old traditions are no longer there.All I’m saying is, sometimes you don’t want solutions. You just want to be in a bad mood about something. I don’t want someone telling me, “Well, you can change this … You can make this happen and fix it. It doesn’t have to be so bad.” I’m well aware of the fact that it doesn’t HAVE to be bad, but in my eyes, its crappy, and nothing I do will change the fact that in the background its still crappy. /end rant1. What is your favorite holiday tradition?2. What do you want for Christmas?3. Is there anyone you like to spend the holidays with most?
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