Quick entry about updates…
I’m just posting a really quick, short, and to the point entry. I know I haven’t written since Friday, my apologies. I’ve been busy. We had our apartment inspection today; We had a lot of cleaning to do to prepare. Friday we spent the day… I honestly don’t remember what we did on Friday. Oh yes! Mike played Left4Dead on Xbox and then we basically just relaxed and hung out. Saturday we went over to his parents house early in the day and hung out there all day. They ended up taking the kids for the night. We went out to our friend’s house that we don’t usually see often, nor visit much anymore. We hung out for a while, it was cool. I was extremely frustrated because we were at a ‘party-type house’ and I’d say 90% of everyone there was smoking. I had talked to Mike prior to going and told him that it was going to be extremely hard for me because 1. We’re out. 2. Everyone else is smoking. 3. (I thought) I’d be drinking. All of these makes for not being able to have a cigarette extremely hard. So, he told me for that night, since we were out socially, I could have one. I didn’t end up doing it. WHY you ask? “But Nikkole, you bitch all day long about not being able to smoke because Mike made you quit. Here’s your chance, why didn’t you take it?” Because, I’d feel guilty. I don’t want to disappoint or displease Mike. *shakes head* I sacrifice my happiness and wants for his approval. I love him too much to disappoint him. I sure hope he realizes what I do for him and how HARD this is for me. I honestly just want to cry and cry sometimes because its something I really DO NOT want to do, but because he wants me to, I am. ;;sigh;; So, needless to say, I was crabby and just not in the mood to be out anymore. We went home and I went to bed without saying much of anything to him. I wish this would get easier!Sunday we went and picked up a newspaper and went to Office Depot so I could pick up some photo paper for my new printer that should be coming tomorrow. ::excited:: I get to print out coupons from online now!!! Total nerd, right? Well, after going through my coupons and ads online today; I realized I am going to be able to get $50-60 worth of stuff for MAYBE $5 this week. Speaking of which…I have a question to ask my current viewers/readers… I want to post my coupon savers. (This will include tips, what I bought, some good sales I see coming, etc.) Would you rather me do this on a subdomain site or do it here? I ask because its not going to bother me ONE BIT to make a sub-domain for my couponing. I just don’t want to annoy my current viewers with stuff they’re not interested in. Please give me your opinion!!! I created a sub-domain last night and have already begun on the new site… So, disregard that last question. ^_^What else? I honestly don’t have much more… UHM… Yes. I do, nevermind…What do I do about work? IF I send the kids to daycare it will be $450-500 per week. I’d only be making approximately $470 per week. My rent will increase. I will no longer receive food stamp assistance. In my eyes, the best decision to be made is to just stay home. THEN Mike’s mom threw a wrench into the works and says, “Well, for the next month I know for a fact I can watch them. I only work during the day two days this month. George already said he had no problem watching them those two days.” So, alright, she is willing to watch them for the next month [for absolute sure] but what about after this month? Do we know for a fact she’s going to be available? I could ask, but knowing her, she won’t answer. Also, will she accept payment? What does she feel is fair? Will she tell us a direct amount that we will pay her? (No, she won’t she’ll say, “Pay what you feel is fair.” HMPH!) Quite honestly, what I would LOVE to do is the following: Stay home and be a housewife until Mikhail goes to kindergarten THEN get a job. Go back to school, get some college credits or even a degree within the next few years. I just want answers. I want to be able to either tell work, yes, I’ll be back; or no, I will not be able to return at this time. I told Mike I want answers by Tuesday, we’ll see if that happens.My apartment inspection was today. I asked about receiving a three-bedroom townhouse. (We live in government funded housing. There are two and three bedroom townhouses, and two bedroom apartments. We are currently living in a two bedroom apartment.) My manager said that she would put me on the list to receive one. Judging by the newsletter we received regarding people taking advantage of this place; I don’t see that being a problem. They said they’re planning on evicting ALL SORTS of people within the next few months because of problems they’re having. Luckily, I’m not included in that because I leave them alone and don’t say shit. So, hopefully, we get a three bedroom. I don’t really like these apartments. I don’t like the little community that we live in, but in my eyes; A three-bedroom would make it worth while. We’d be able to have the room we need, and be able to save money then. Alright, uhm… So much for this being a “short, to the point” entry. *Sigh* I needed to rant apparently. Anyways, that’s all I have to say for now. Back to my couponing… It takes a while to jump start w/ this because you want to start everything at once. I think once you have a system started things will be much easier and I won’t spend all this time doing this. ^_^
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