This is going to be a hodge podge of nonsense. I just want to update
everyone myself what’s going on. I mean, I am the only one who reads this so what’s the point of saying anyone anymore, right? Actually, I wanted to talk about that. I am contemplating deleting my old entries from being online but having them saved on an external hard drive. Then possibly making my blog public once again and write whatever I want to write as a way to teach myself to say what’s on my mind without having fears of what people are going to think. The main reason I might delete old entries from being on the internet and not just leave them private is because my old entries are VERY dark. I went through a LOT of stuff and I was a very dark person. I said some things back then that could be easily be taking out of context and be construed and hurt some feelings. So, I honestly think that instead of some day someone finding them I’m going to tuck them away in a secret corner and delete them from here. Do I want to start over on EA? Not particularly. I love the fact that I almost have 600 entries but honestly, there comes a time where it’s time to move on from the past and start a new future. So we’ll see what I decide. I’m still reading my old entries. I have roughly 200 left to read.
I am SO incredibly disappointed in Nickolas right now. He’s currently failing Math and Science. I received two emails from his teachers explaining the things that were going on in class. They gave him this STUPID iPad to work on and he’s supposed to do this and that like take notes and such. He has not been using his iPad for that reason at all though. He’s spending 90% of his day looking up pictures on it to make iMovies of movie trailers and such instead of doing his work.
I was livid. I read to him the entire email that his science teacher had wrote and he just sat there with this dumb look on his face. He was guilty and he knew he wasn’t getting out of this one. I talked to him about the email I received from his math teacher on Thursday or Friday and he said he’d do better and that was about it. That was it. I left it at that. Then to receive a second email in less than a few days regarding how disorganized his binder is and how he’s wasting his time doing unproductive stuff in school. Ridiculous.
He’s now grounded. He will not have access to the TV, tablet, or Xbox. I haven’t decided or not but I believe I’m also going to ground him from doing anything fun and extracurricular at school. This may or may not include Minecraft club if and when it comes. That would be a LOW LOW blow if I didn’t allow him to do that. Honestly though, is that what it will take? Or am I going to have to let him fail sixth grade? No, I’m NOT going to allow that to happen. I will get on top of this before it comes down to that.
We have conferences on the 12th so we will hopefully see some improvement by then. He’s grounded until his grades get up. I haven’t quite decided if I want them to be in the C’s or D’s. I would prefer them to be in the C’s before I allow him off grounding.
I must say, I do NOT like him having an iPad in class. I knew he would sit and play around on it. It’s something new. They’re just setting him up for disaster. Like my dad said, “If you’re going to give children iPads in school, why even have school? Give the kids laptops and have them have school at home and teach over the internet. How much money would that save the budget?”
We really didn’t do much this weekend. Friday, Mike got home around 2 pm before the kids came home. We ended up ordering Golden Chicken and eating. Mike went downstairs. It was Mikhail’s day on the Xbox so he was on there and Nick spent most of the night on my computer. We just hung out and had a laid back day.
Saturday morning I woke up around 8 am. Mikhail said he was hungry and I decided to make a big breakfast – pancakes and bacon. Mike decided he would get in to one of his cleaning frenzies; I hate when he gets in to these. He goes nuts. Usually he destroys the house before he cleans the house. He bounced between the bathroom, kitchen, dining room, and living room cleaning various things while I cooked. I tried my best to stay out of his way. No one likes when he decides to clean because he gets so short with people demanding people do exactly what he tells them to do at that exact moment. I also feel bad when he gets in to these frenzies because I feel like I’m not doing my part. He emptied the front hall closet and went through most of that but left most of it to me to finish going through. He swept and went through the entire kitchen leaving mopping to me. I finished up cooking breakfast, everyone ate, then I began cleaning up my mess.
Mike finally revealed that we might have guest come over that night. I go, “What is it? A hot babe? Some girl you’re dying to impress with how crazy you got with the cleaning?” He didn’t answer me. I guess he didn’t like that answer.
It took us until around 11 am to finish cleaning. Then we just hung out for a while. Lynn and George Periscoped me from Disney World then I had to let them go because Mike wanted to go to Walmart so we left. We walked around Walmart real quick then headed home once Mike got what he needed.
The rest of the night was really laid back. Everyone just hung out and played on their own devices. No one ended up coming over. I finally was able to put the boys to bed around 9. Nick and I did some talking, which brings me to my next topic:
I’m not sure what I have told you about what’s been going on with Nick but we have had some revelations the past few nights during talking. Nick had decided that he’s not entirely sure he wants to see Matt again. He says, “I mean I do. I wanna see him but I don’t like how he treated me. I just wish he would change.” I explained to him about 30 times. HE WILL NEVER EVER CHANGE FOR ANYBODY! I really want to get that through his head. He has done a lot of thinking about it though. He’s coming to terms he didn’t like how Dad treated him. He decided he didn’t want to feel like that again. I explained to him Matt will probably disappear again. And we should just let him because why have that negativity in your life like that??
We’re making progress. We’ll see what happens in the coming weeks. He doesn’t see the therapist for another month. UGH! There’s a lot of time in one month that shit can go down. Guess we’ll see what happens.
I’ll end this here. I think I’m going to continue reading my blog for a while and decide what I want to do with these entries.