Waiting games are no fun.
Hi folks. It’s been a long while since I last posted. I promise now that I have a new theme *points and laughs* I will post more. Isn’t it beautiful? Simplicity at its finest folks. I decided my life isn’t that dark anymore there is no need for a dark layout. This one will do for now. Maybe someday I’ll make a nice theme with pictures of the kids or something. Anyways, you’re probably wondering what my title’s about. Waiting games are no fun.
So, last I wrote I had a disability hearing in front of a judge along with my attorney. I recieved word about two weeks ago that they were denying my case. again! *sigh* So what does this mean? It means I have to wait for my attorney to figure out whether or not they feel as though I have a case to appeal it. I waited about a week and a half and they finally gave me word. They said there is reasons to believe the case should be appealed. They filed my appeal and the next step is waiting. It could take 6 to 36 months before I hear anything back. Yep. A possibility of three years. Fucking lovely. So until then, I have to work a maximum of $1000/month. FOR THE NEXT THREE YEARS! How on earth am I supposed to make a living working so little?
Its alright though. I can’t work more than that now as is anyways. My bipolar disorder is too rough for me to cope right now and I’m having a VERY hard time at work. I’m speeding through the call, making tons of mistakes. When I get something like a last name, I’m repeating it back wrong. I can’t get a perfect QA (quality assurance) for the life of me. I barely stay my entire shift. As matter of fact, I only work 15 hours a week, I am lucky if I make 10 of those hours a week. We have a thing called VTO (voluntary time off). When you start your shift, or whenever actually, you can sign up for what time you want to leave. If its slow and no ones getting calls the managers allow the people that signed up for VTO to go home. Needless to say, I sign up almost every day. Is painfully addicting. Even when I know I have a wedding to save for, and bills to pay, I leave. I just can’t cope.
So that’s what s going on with disability. Just another waiting game to see if I’ll qualify for it. Basically, they don’t want to have to pay me for it. Not only would I be getting a check but both the kids would be getting a check every month too. They don’t want to have to pay that.
So, what’s going on today? Since I’ll be writing on a daily/weekly basis I suppose I can tell you how I’m doing right now. I’m dealing. I just got Mikhail down for a much needed nap. Nickolas is over at a little boys house in the apartment building. I haven’t seen much of him lately. He’s been gone playing at one apartment or another. Mike and I are doing well. His truck is still out of commission. Which is entirely frustrating because I would really like my car back. He takes my car to work with him during the day. I take the car to work with me at night. We need two vehicles. What happens if something happens to one of the kids and they have to go to the hospital? He’s really touchy about it. I asked him about it yesterday and he practically bit my head off. I won’t be doing that again. Hopefully someday soon he’ll have it all fixed up. Then he can sell it for all I care. I just want my car back. Dammit, I paid with my own money for that car. Its mine.
Well, that concludes today’s entry. Leave comments if you’d like. More comments I get the more likely I’ll continue to update. Look at me, basically begging for comments. Pitiful. Oh well, that’s me. ^_^
