No longer going to be very social
Disclaimer:There will be some cursing and language in this entry… if you’re not mature enough to read this, then please dont. This is my blog, and I’m being adult enough to let you know before hand that there will be some language you might not want to read. If you’re not mature enough, please leave or not read this entry.
I’ve made the decision a few days ago…
I’m no longer leaving the house.
I’m no longer going to be social.
I give up on friends.
Seriously? Other than a few select people, what is the point? All that ever comes of it is drama and hard feelings. I have a very few select close friends. Yet those friends make me feel like crap sometimes. This isnt directed towards anyone in particular. I just need to vent.Drama… who the fuck needs it? High school, BULL SHIT drama. I’m happy where I am in my life. I’m trying extremely hard to take a grasp at life and do something with it. I want to go get my temps. I’ve been putting in applications everywhere. I’ve been working really hard at selling some of my graphics on my signature shop. I havent been spending the entire day online. I’m quitting smoking. I’m trying to lose weight. I’m trying to make Mike’s and my relationship to the absolute best it can be. I’m trying to do SO MUCH for myself… and I go out… and have this bad night where people sit there and put me down because I dont want to drink. I dont want to smoke pot. I just want to chill and say hi to an old friend.
Quite frankly… I’m to the point of getting rid of my messangers, turn off my phone. Sit in my house with Michael and Nickolas and not give a damn about anything thats going on in this world. There are very few people I’ve been talking to about all this and they know who they are… I’m just so sick of the bull shit, the drama, the lies, the deciept… I want to live my life, happily. I cant do that with people always bringing me down. I have worked TOO damn hard to get where I am at this exact moment. I’m not letting SHIT of anyone put that down again.Sorry for the cursing and swears… I needed to vent :angry:
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