Alright, I have some new updates regarding my home life and health. I first need to fill you all in on some information that I forgot to add in the last entry, and of course answer any questions that were asked:

I was diagnosed with HG or Hyperemesis Gravidarum; Its a rare pregnancy disorder that only effects about .1-2% of pregnant women. More information regarding this can be found: here. Basically its excessive vomiting and nausea during pregnancy. The medication that I was put on is called Zofran. Its actually a medication that is given to chemotherapy and cancer survivors that have a hard time with nausea from their medication and treatment. Its a very expensive medication; thus the reason I was only able to get 12 pills at a time. As for the questions asked… Heres my general answer. I’m doing alright. Yes, I’m pregnant for sure. This did come as a surprise. It wasn’t planned. Is it shunned for not being planned or unwanted? Not at all. I will love this child with open arms and I’m slowly getting excited about its arrival. I’ve just been very ill, and can’t bring myself to be 100% happy/excited due to how shitty I feel. The medication does help me. I’m also taking two other medications daily. The zofran only helps some, thats just to help me not vomit. I have to take a secondary medication to take off the edge of the nausea. I also have to take other meds to counter act the side effects I get from the Zofran.

The newest updates…This past weekend, I ran out of medication due to only having a limited amount of pills. I took my last one on Saturday, and got violently ill on Sunday. I tried eating and only was able to keep down a little bit of my breakfast. I wasn’t able to keep any fluids/solids down at all. I went to the doctor on Monday morning. They told me I was extremely dehydrated again. I hadn’t kept down an ounce of fluids for 24 hours. They tested my dehydration level and gave me another prescription for my pills right away. The doctor told me to take the pills and then drink as much as possible. I told him I got to the point of sitting above the toilet guzzling down water just for it to come back up again. I had to do it so I could get some fluid in me. So after talking, the doctor did an ultra sound. Wanted to make sure the baby was alright, had a steady heart beat, also wanted to see how far along I really was. I was estimating that I was 8 or 9 weeks along, but I wasn’t entirely sure because I had NO idea when my last period was. (I stopped keeping track because I’m so irregular.) So we did an ultrasound, and he goes, “Well there’s the baby. That fluttering is the heartbeat. Thats good to see/know.” He measured the baby. I then said, “Well, as long as there’s only one there. My mom keeps insisting that either me or my sister are having twins. We’re both pregnant but she’s due in October and hasn’t seen a doctor yet.” He goes, “Well, we’ll get to that in one moment, I want to show you something.” I’m like “Alright….” So he’s searching around the ultrasound and comes up to the baby again, and then this second black spot. He goes, “Theres the baby, but do you see that other black spot right there?” I nodded, then my heart dropped. He goes, “Well, that larger black spot right there I believe is a blood clot. Don’t worry though, its completely common to see blood clots in the placenta, and as long as the baby has a heartbeat we’re not going to think too far into it.” Phew, alright. So then he drops another bomb… “Do you see that little black spot thats next to what I showed you was the blood clot?” I nodded. “Well, thats a second sac.” — Confused — He then proceeded on saying, “Well, the nausea and HG are very very high when carrying multiples. Your body was carrying twins, but only one formed. Thats why you’ve been so ill and you’re showing so much already. Your body is in the mode to carry twins. ” TWINS?! I would’ve been carrying TWINS!? HOLY FUCKING SHIT! I don’t know what to think at this point. He says that he’s believing that its a second sac, but doesn’t appear to have anything inside of it so we’re going to just leave it at that. Theres no reason to really look further into it because the baby has a heartbeat, and appears to be healthy. So he informed that the baby is 8 weeks and 3 days old. My due date is December 10th. So, I got another prescription for my medication. I’m supposed to get 35 pills, but the insurance (once again) only would cover 12. They’re trying to contact the doctors office to do an override. That could take a few days. I’m supposed to go back to work on Wednesday. I was given an excuse due to complications during my pregnancy that I was unable to work fully since the 28th of April. I’ve also been given permission to work less or leave early depending on my symptoms and how I’m feeling. I’m basically going to use this as a trial period. I’ve talked to work and they’ve been pretty supportive about it. They said if I needed to, I could take short term disability. I’m going to see how I do with the medication that I’m on and go from there. If I’m not able to work functionally this week, I’m going to request for short term disability. I’m already worried about mine and the baby’s health because of the blood clot and the fact that I’m supposed to be carrying twins. I don’t want to push my body anymore than it doesn’t want to. But thats whats going on… Holy SHIT, right? Yea, thats what I’m thinking. So yea… I’ll talk to you all later.

Written on Tuesday May 6th, 2008 at 11:45am || Filed under: Health, Struggles ||