My ‘near death’ experience today.
I was doing so well today… then an EPIC FAIL of my apartment buildings behalf happened… I’ll write my accomplishments anyways.
- I woke up, got the boys to school, AND stayed calm during MAJOR meltdowns, arguments, and tantrums that were thrown this morning. Nickolas was a bear before school, but I did it, calmly.
- WORKED OUT! I did my day one on my 30 day challenge on my new Wii Active. I worked out for 17 minutes and burned over 150 calories! According to some websites, I burn more calories doing laundry, but boy it was a workout! I was sweating my ass off [literally]. I have NEVER ran so hard/fast in my life. In fact, I HATE running, thus the reason I used to fail gym every year – I couldn’t run.
- After showering – I ate a really healthy meal. 4 small slices of grilled chicken on a whole wheat tortilla and a slice of pepper jack cheese made in to a quesadilla served with a banana and water. Mm Mmm MMM
Alright well, that’s the BIG things I accomplished… I also attempted to nap. BUT for those who don’t know …
Today I was sitting around my living room attempting to feed Mikhail his lunch when there was a loud bang on my door. “MOVE YOUR CAR NOW! WE HAVE A WATER-MAIN BREAK!” Awesome. I run outside, start to move my car down our driveway (its hard to explain but basically its two apt complexes that face each other – theres a driveway down the middle of them and a parking lot in the back…) I began to drive down the driveway when my apt manager screamed to get over! So I pulled over and drove as carefully as I could… Shortly after I got through and parked on the road, I see my neighbors truck sink into the road in a HUGE sink hole – it could have been me! His hood of his TRUCK was parallel with the pavement. His front right tire corner of the truck was completely in the ground and the other end of the truck was straight in the air! If I would’ve been, I don’t know, MAYBE 1-2ft more to the right – it would have been me. My car, nor I would have made it. When we came home after they fixed the pipe, the whole ended up being 6ft deep… thank god he didn’t get hurt! They got the truck out but JEEZ!!! Needless to say I was REALLY lucky that I didn’t end up in the sink hole. The car, nor I would have made it.
[Apparently this is the only thing I had copy/pasted... I had a MUCH longer entry written but when I published it - it deleted. WHAT THE HELL, RIGHT?!]
Anyways… I basically write further; Mike came home. We went to his parents house because we were under the impression that the water would be turned off until tonight, tomorrow, or even until Friday. We had no idea, the apartment manager had NO idea. So, we left.
I drank a pumpkin spice latte from Starbucks & had greasy Papa Murphy’s pizza. Which totally ruined my healthy dieting that I had started this morning – BUT I had a bad day, and that’s my excuse. I’m going to try hard again tomorrow.
Tomorrow is my first official medication appointment! I go for the first time to see the actual psychiatrist. I’ve never been on anything BUT prozac – which did NO GOOD THINGS for me. I’ve especially NEVER been on medications AND had therapy at the same time. I think this is REALLY going to do good for me, and my process to get “all better” if there is such a thing…
Like I said, I wrote a LOT more earlier, and it was deleted when I published the post. So now I don’t know what I wrote … I’ll write tomorrow on here, or Tumblr to let you all know how the meds appointment went.
Hey :) It’s my first day reading your blog, I saw the link in the Bipolar_Blogs feed. I was wondering if you’ve ever looked into trying natural medicine?
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September 16th, 2009 at 10:30pm
I have not tried natural medicine. I’m going to give prescription meds another go. Until then, we’ll see what happens! Thanks so much for leaving me a comment. I hope you enjoyed your stay.
Yay, good accomplishments!
Oh my goodness, that’s scary! I couldn’t imagine looking at the truck in that hole and knowing it could have been you. That’s insane.
Yay for going to the doctor though! I suggest Paxil. That’s what I’ve been taking. I keep having to higher the dose, but it works pretty well for me. I still have a bit of anxiety, but my panic attacks have gone almost completely away. Every once in a great while I’ll feel like I’m going to start have one, but I’m normally able to just sit for a minute and get it to go away. That’s a HUGE step from the ones I was having. And I tried Prozac, but I only took one pill. The next day I was SO dizzy I couldn’t do anything at all. It was horrible. Good luck though!
Good job on starting out healthy. You seem hopeful in spite of such an awful day.
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Thats incredibly scary! OMG! I had a near death experiance this summer too. My mom was driving and we were on the highway. My mom got distracted by this car doing weird things on the road and we almost ran into a truck…like a big truck to move furniture with. It was so scary cause we almost went off the road. LOL! (not!)