Miscellaneous Monday is going to be a new ‘themed blogset’ here at EternalAmour. I hardly ever blog on the weekends; therefore I usually have loads to say on Monday. Therefore, MM was born and found to be useful. ^_^

Weekend Plans – This weekend was extremely uneventful. We spent practically the entire weekend over at Mike’s parents house. Mike had his first full weekend off in a long time; His mom also had an entire weekend off, so we just hung out over there. We ended up going to Kohls on Saturday.  Which is where I got an AMAZING buy. I bought a black wool coat, $200 value; for approximently $12.00. Yup, thats right. Twelve Dollars.  It was on clearance for 90% off making it $20; Plus we had a 30% off coupon + they took off an additional $3.00 because we found it was “damaged” because it was missing one of the decorative buttons across the back. “Well, we can just find a matching button at Joanne Fabric’s or something.”  (We later found the button in the pocket. HA!) So, that was one of my amazing buys this weekend. I’ve been bragging everywhere about it. (To give you an idea a bit more about it, it goes down to my knees.

I won my second sweepstake today. It was only a t-shirt, but it was a win! Of course, thanks to Wendy at Sweeties Sweeps. Her site has so many resources for winning these things. So many thanks! Anyways, like I said, it was only a t-shirt but hey, its a t-shirt.  [I'm unsure whether or not I posted anything about my first sweepstakes win. It was a deodorant from the Secret Diamond Giveaway.] You’re thinking, “Why are you so excited, Nikki? Its just deodorant and a t-shirt!” Because I have never won anything before; and in less than a week, I’ve won TWICE. Which means, its possible, using the tips that Wendy provides, and doing what I’ve been doing, I can see winning BIG. We’ll see what else I win! I’ve made it a daily ritual (along with my emails, websites, network sites, and my bank account) to fill these out. [I downloaded the "Morning Coffee" add-on for Firefox - You configure it to your everyday sites - One click, and you have all those specific sites opened.]

Oprah had an amazing episode on today. It was about Mom’s who are 100% honest and real! Sharing their deepest darkest secrets about being a mother. I thought this was extremely inspirational. Maybe I’ll get the ‘guts’ to share all that happens with me, in straight honesty. Us as moms, we should unite, not judge, and not compare. I constantly feel like a failure as a parent because I feel as though I’m not “good enough” compared to these other women. I have days where I refuse to play with Nick simply because I’m too stressed or too busy. I’ve given him chips or (insert another junk food here) for breakfast because we didn’t have anything else that was ‘quick’ and I was too tired to cook a 100% healthy meal that he would fight to eat.  It really inspired me to be more ‘open and honest’ about my blogs and not hold anything back simply because I’m scared of judgement. I really need to teach myself how to not let others judgement get the best of me. I do this often. This has also caused me to have problems with the following…

Dr. Phil’s producer called me again today.  It was a quick phone call. Basically asking if anyone involved in my life who this effect this most, would they be willing to come on the show. I told her there was “Mike, Nickolas and Mikhail who it effects, but they aren’t interested in being on the show.”  She said, “Well, Dr. Phil likes to have the entire family whose involved to be on the show.” Then proceeded on asking a bunch of other questions about my ‘highs and lows’ and about what I go through on a daily basis.  We’ll see what happens. I told Mike that if they wanted me, I was going. I understand why he doesn’t want to go, but I think I might end up doing this because A. Its help that I’d love to get. B. Where else would I get an opportunity like this again?  I don’t know, I’m highly conflicted about the whole thing. National television is a VERY LARGE thing. I just keep thinking about those random people from the past (and even in the present) saying something along the lines of, “HEY! Do you remember Nikki? Look! She’s on Dr. Phil! She really is crazy!!!” I told the producer that I wasn’t even sure whether or not I wanted to be on the show, she said she read my email; We will just have to wait and see. If they say “We’ll fly you out to LA on ___.” I guess I’ll be making a decision as of that day.

Alright folks. I try extremely hard not to have an ridiculously long blog; That never works.

Written on Monday April 6th, 2009 at 9:24pm || Filed under: Parenting, Sweepstakes ||