I wanted to sing, “Just another manic Monday, whoa whoa. Wish it was Sunday! That’s my fun day! Whoa Whoa. Just another manic Monday.” You’re welcome for putting that song in your head now.

I am really, really, manic.

I’m like the good manic though. I call this mania, the cleaning mania. I get SO much cleaning done while I’m cleaning manic.

Let’s see what symptoms I have:

  • cleaning like crazy
  • starting big projects
  • writing big, audacious lists to complete
  • not sleeping – kinda. I’ve been sleeping 9 hours a night, but I’m also taking ambien. I do believe if I wasn’t taking ambien I wouldn’t be sleeping much at all. Hell, I was up at seven this morning ready to clean stuff. UGH! I got a solid 9 hours of sleep so I shouldn’t be droopy over the course of the day from lack of sleep but who knows.
  • kinda angry and irritated. I’m not screaming like I normally do while manic so that either means I’m not an irritable manic, or my meds are doing their job.
  • want to buy ALL THE THINGS! I have been adding stuff to my wishlist like crazy during this past week. That’s what I do instead of spending money. I try REALLY hard to just add the stuff to the wishlist then sit on it for a few days before deciding if I need it. This uses an insane amount of self control when it comes to manic spending but I seem to have a good grasp on it.
  • I’m unfocused. I can’t think about something for a very long period of time because I lose my train of thought very easily. This doesn’t help my wanting to read or anything but I am able to listen to podcasts, for the most part, and pay attention to those because I’m physically not doing anything.

I believe that’s it. I’m sure there’s more… oh wait *adds unfocused* Ok!

I know now that if you read that, you’re going to read it in order, and then see that I added ‘unfocused’ and you’re going to go back and look at it. Heh. Whatever.

I’m going to start doing a little better with condensing blog posts. I write A LOT and it’s no wonder why I have no readers (except my lovely, Sheri who is a great, great friend). I write WAY TOO MUCH! So gonna do my best to condense that down.

Today, I am going to lay low. I’m going to try to relax as much as possible. Try to bring myself down from this euphoric, manic high. I promise nothing. I kinda don’t want to get rid of it because I have been getting SO much done. I just know the higher I allow myself to go, the harder and further I’m going to fall in to a burning crash.

Bipolar 1 Disorder… gotta love it. YAY! Ok. I will relax today. I will relax today.

 

written on at 8:43 am || Filed under: Life with Bipolar

One Response to “Manic … Friday.”

  1. Sheri says:

    Yep, classic manic episode. Hang on! <3 love you too

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