This week has included some ups and downs. What week doesn’t? Yesterday, I received a message on Facebook from an old co-worker and friend asking when I’m coming back to work. Now, its been over two and half years since I left. I explain to him that daycare costs don’t make it worth me returning and decline his offer even though I so badly want to go back to work. He responds with Matt (my old manager) specifically asked for you. He will probably be willing to work with any schedule you offer. I was floored. After all this time people are still specifically asking for me? That was quite the compliment. Flattered, I write back that I would discuss things over with Mike.

Mike and I discussed it last night. He actually spoke on the subject. I was shocked. He never speaks. Anyways, he actually talked to me about it. We had a lot to consider. What will happen with disability? How much of my food stamps will I lose? How many hours can you work/handle? Will you be able to handle returning to work at all? Will they be willing to take all that in to consideration?

Mike said as long as I think I can handle it, all I can do is try. If it doesn’t work out, then it makes me look good for disability. If it does work out, great. He said if we lose some food stamps it will be okay because I will just make up for it with my paycheck. Any little bit more of money will help. Besides that, I’ll have three days away from the kids. It will be pretty dead in the PM hours and during the winter months anyways. That will give me plenty of time to go through my coupons and shop accordingly so more saving money! He said if we’re able to work three-five days a week for five hours a day that would be awesome.

That’s what I’m trying for. Three days a week. Five hours a day. I’m going for a 5:30pm – 10:30pm schedule. Mike’s been super supportive during this entire thing. He understands how stir crazy I have been through the last weeks and knows how much I miss going there.

I called my old manager and he answered the phone with, “I hope you’re calling to tell me you’re coming back to us.” I explained what’s been going on with disability and that my schedule is limited. He told me to go to Milwaukee Jobs online and apply for the job, be sure to put my availability in. I was very specific as to what hours I was asking for but due to disability I have to be specific. He said he’d give me a call tomorrow and let me know if they can work with the schedule I provided.

I’m crossing my fingers. I’m very nervous though. I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle working again. I’m not sure the boys will be able to handle me being gone three-five nights a week. I think Mom’s more scared of letting them go then they are of letting me go. That’s understandable though. I’ve been the one that has made their meals every single night. Tucked them in to bed. I really cannot wait to be out of the house away for a little while but its going to be hard letting go. We’ll figure it all out.

I’ll let you know tomorrow what happens. Until then, goodnight.

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