Alright, so here is another update. Yes, I am still alive. mg:

So, whats been going on with little ol’ Nikkole? Well, I have been working, coming home, taking care of Nick, cleaning, and playing my game. Welcome to the extent of my life! I haven’t been doing much of anything lately, really. Just stuff has been stressing me out lately, and it doesnt even concern money! Basically the whole work thing, Mike’s schedule thing, etc. I’ll explain a little better…Mike’s Schedule:Well, currently Mike is working 1pm – 1am, Monday through Sunday. Thats right, 7 days a week, 12 hr shifts. So, we haven’t had the joys of being able to see each other very much lately. Granted, its the break we needed from each other, but in another sense it isn’t. Basically whats going down is that we miss each other, and we’re stressed from work. With the stress from work, when we do see each other we tend to argue quite a bit. It was pretty stressful last weekend especially. He had off work on Saturday, and needless to say it wasn’t a good thing. I decided to cook dinner, and be all loving… Well, with everything thats been going on, I’ve been really forgetful and such. Long story short, we got into an argument and it got to the point of me saying “You know what fine, leave, I don’t even care anymore, its not like we have a relationship anymore anyways!” So, he left. Needless to say, I wasn’t too thrilled. Quite frankly, I was heart broken. He showed back up about 20-30 minutes later, with a bouquet of a dozen roses. It was the very first time he’s ever done that. It really proved me just how much I meant to him and how much our relationship means to him. So we’re all better.

As for work: Its just stressing me out. The fact that as of “Oct. 31st” is our last day. Well, we’ll find out if we’re being hired on or not. I haven’t a clue whether or not I am. Granted, for the longest time I figured it was mine, I had it. But I don’t want to be extremely wrong and disappointed when I find out I’m not. I really want/need this job. Lately, I have been on the verge of quitting. I don’t think its because I dislike the job, or my co-workers, but because of the stress and such that I’m under to find out whether or not I’m going to be unemployed yet again. Its really hard on me to think about that. Yes, I know, I knew I was seasonal, I knew this day was coming. But I didn’t want to think of that happening. I was so sure, set in stone, that this job was mine. But with the way things are going, I don’t know. It seems basically that I have as good/bas as a chance as everyone else. Why hire me? I have many occurences. I have a bunch of problems that are health related. Why not pick someone that doesn’t have any problems. Its just a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. Am I going to get hired on? or Am I going to be unemployed for only god knows how long again? Only time will tell I suppose.What else? Oh! Nickolas’ birthday was on last Monday. He turned 4 years old. I just bought him his present today because I haven’t been able to go to the store with Mike’s schedule and all. We bought him a Power Rangers Operation Overdrive morphing phone, Surf’s Up! DVD, a package of army men, and a book. He picked all of the stuff out. Yes, my son wanted a book. Such a good boy, eh? He’s doing pretty good. We’re having a problem with the listening and paying attention with him right now. He is going through is “I’m going on 14″ stage. If there is such a thing anyways. Next weekend, I’m planning on attending a costume party. Should be pretty fun. I have been wanting to go to one for the past, god only knows how long. I’m going to be a Sexy & Sassy “Punk-type” Fairy. Basically its like a gothic fairy. I’ll post pictures either from the site or from the party. Alright guys, I just wanted to keep you all updated. I apologize for not updating and such. Blah Blah Blah, excuses, excuses. I really don’t have to apologize to anyone. For this is my site, and I can do as I please really… But the hits are low, and I miss talking to people, so yea.Anywho, buh byes.

Written on Sunday October 21st, 2007 at 3:11am || Filed under: Love ||