Finally… I grew willing to type this [many photos included!!!]

Date posted: Tuesday April 13th, 2010 || Filed under: Family, Life with Bipolar || 5 Comments

It’s been quite a long few weeks. It’s been over a month since my last blog entry. I must tell you a lot has happened. I don’t know how much I’ll be willing and able to indulge because currently I’m going through manic depression badly. It’s a long story, but without wanting to bore anyone with my unexciting talking about my newest developing bull shit of a disease called bipolar disorder, I’ll tell you this. I’m on a new medication, Depakote. I have been on this medication since mid-February. I started off with 1000MG per night. After a little over a month or so of being on it, I started to feel depressed and dazed. I didn’t feel like myself. I explained it as feeling “zombie-like” and not fully there. Anyways, I had to call the doctor this morning, he recently (two weeks ago) put me on 1500MG of this medication and I just plummeted when it came to the side effects. These are all the symptoms that these meds have caused: weird dreams & nightmares, lethargic, memory loss, excessive & uncontrollable eating, feeling dazed, dizziness, loss of cognition, tremors, anxiety, insomnia (worse than normal). Not to mention, I can’t drive. I cannot SAFELY drive. I look both ways over 15 times because I cannot remember if a cars coming or not. I feel like I’m “driving on autopilot” as I like to say.  I called this morning to ask of I can be taken off these medications immediately.  So, please be warned, if none of my snetences and such make sense here. That’s why. These damn pills. I cannot put a whole lot together in my head so hopefully most of what comes out on this entry make s at least a little bit of sense. Thanks.

So, we’re all moved in now. It took us less than 4 hours to have everything loaded in the truck, moved to the new house, and unloaded. We worked quickly. It just shows how much hard work I put in to the packing and sorting that made things that much easier. *wink* We’ve been here for almost two weeks now and it feels like so much longer. I went crazy once we were all in. I wanted everything set up and put together, sorted, organized, etc. immediately too. By Saturday night, that morning was when we moved, the house looked like we had lived there at least 2-3 months. There was a few boxes here and there but for the most part, it was home. It took a while for me to get back in the swing of things and to feel comfortable here. These new medications didn’t help that at all.

Anyways, I’m going to just show the pictures. This is the apartment before we had moved in…

So, there it is, that’s my apartment. We took those pictures on Friday night after getting the keys. It was so exciting. That night Mike, Adam, Gwenn, and I hung out a while, went to dinner, and moved a few boxes. The next morning was when the big move was. We got a 24FT truck. We started moving around 8:30am. The entire truck was loaded and we were ready to drive to the new place around 9:30am. Everyone arrived around 10am, we began to unload. I really believe around 11-11:30am we were done unloading and the house was filled with boxes. I honestly should have taken pictures of how this living room looked with all the boxes and furniture just thrown in the middle. Remind you, the beds, and the bedroom stuff was all in their designated rooms.

Gwenn and I began to unpack. She thinks the same as I do when it comes to “we have the motivation, might as well use it and get some of this done.” We started on the kitchen first. One by one, we began to unpack the boxes, load the cabinets, and put things away. We moved from room to room working on each one. The boys focused on the living room. I’d by that night we were pretty much all set up. There was some boxes around but it amazing how quick this place came together. If you walked in you would have thought we lived here two-three weeks. This next set of pictures were taken on Sunday night. Mike and I had spent nearly all day Sunday cleaning the old apartment, so we didn’t do much that day.

As you can see we did a lot of work over the course of those two days. I got a lot of the house set up. Obviously there were still boxes here and there, but regardless I did all that in two days so buzz off!

Alright, I have to be honest here. I’ve been doing this entry over the past three days and I lost all thoughts and ideas with whatever else I was going to say. I’m going to end this entry with that. Enjoy the pictures!