Once again it’s been a while since I last wrote. I have no excuses. I’ve been depressed and a lot has been on my mind. /shrugs Nothing excuses my absence from my blog. I wish I wrote on here more. With that being said, there’s gotta be a reason I’m writing now, right? Absolutely. I have a lot of worries going through my mind and I’m hoping to end my worries by typing them out and getting them from my head to the screen. So, here it is.

Christmas is coming. Mike and I tried to save up. Okay, we saved $260 specifically for Christmas. Here’s what we got so far for the kids:

Mikhail – My first RC car
Semi-truck car holder
Little People’s Garage

Nickolas – A new bike
Lego Batman game
(He’s also getting a Nintendo DS from Grandma, along with a few games.)

Shared – Massive box of lego blocks.

We have $100 left to spend and completely unsure of what else to get them. The kids have everything. I’ll quote a friend here when I say, “It looks like Toys R Us had a tornado in their bedroom.” The kids have everything they could want. Nick has 200+ DVDs, puzzles, tons of books, loads of board games (he don’t take care of them otherwise I would buy him more), a Tag Reading System, a Leapster gaming system, (2) gameboy advanced systems. More toys than I can count. Mikhail doesn’t have many toys. I couldn’t possibly buy them a single outfit because their dressers are so full they’re bursting. I can’t even put half their clothes in them. Majority of the clothes are sitting on top of the dressers because they don’t fit. Honestly, what the hell do you buy children that have EVERYTHING?

So, I have the dilemma of what else do I get them. Then, it pulls on my heart strings they’re not getting a lot this year. Mike and I just didn’t save up enough. The stuff they’re getting are BIG items. So, is that enough? I have $100 left to get a few more things. Toys are so damn expensive now a days.

Why does this bother me so much? I mean, you bought them a lot. A new bike!? That is more than most kids get. My parents stopped Christmas when I was a very young. Okay, actually my Mom stopped Christmas when I was only 7 or 8 years old. My Dad stopped buying for me meaningful gifts when I had children. My family has a rule, when you have children, you’re done getting gifts. Your children get your gifts. Fine, understandable. I mean, you can’t afford to buy for both. I get it. Last year my Dad gave me this plastic paper sorter. That they found at a rummage sale. It had so much dust on it that it was grey instead of black. That’s what I got. Meaningful, eh? That’s why Christmas bothers me so much for my kids. I want to be sure they get everything they want. Once again, what do you get a child that has everything? No matter what I’ll be spending that remaining $100 on them equally. Is that going to be enough? Is it enough to call it a good Christmas? These are things I worry about.

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