Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

Trying Something New… We’ll See.

In the recent days, I’ve realized something. Mike has some pretty amazing friends. Sure, his friends are my friends, but they’re not like really my friends, ya know? We’re acquaintances. It’s not like I text them or message them privately, no. I talk to them when I’m in also in the presenceĀ of Mike too. What […]

Written on Saturday, May 6th, 2017 at 10:44pm || Filed under: Friends, Struggles || 2 Comments

Weekly Recap | 10 | Terrible Week

Talk about a TERRIBLE week! I have pictures from the entire week. I don’t know if I’m going to make a Project Life 52 page for this week because things were mostly bad and I mainly took pictures of myself – typical – but we’ll see. So here’s what happened, brace yourselves… Sunday Sunday we […]

Written on Saturday, March 11th, 2017 at 8:08am || Filed under: Anxiety, Coloring, Health, Struggles, Work || 1 Comment

2016 – A year in review.

2016 was pretty crazy. Normally on the last few days of the year, I write about my resolutions proposed accomplishments that I achieved throughout the year but I decided to add little something to my annual post. I want to look back and write some of the things that happened this year. I am going […]

Written on Friday, December 30th, 2016 at 4:21pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Anxiety, Coloring, Life with Bipolar, Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || 2 Comments

So Much.

I have SO much on my mind right now. I applied at DHL yesterday for the seasonal contact center representative position. Well, today, I got a phone call from HR asking for an in-person interview next Tuesday. They skipped the phone interview and went right for the in-person interview. Since then, I have had a […]

Written on Thursday, December 29th, 2016 at 9:36pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Struggles || No Comments

Something New

I’m sick of always coming here talking about how anxious I am about work. Today I’m not going to do that. I am going to talk about other things going on in my life. So buckle up, we’re doing something new today. Nick’s Birthday Nick’s birthday went well. He had a sleepover with his best […]

Written on Tuesday, October 25th, 2016 at 10:30am || Filed under: Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments


I have a hard time with acceptance. Let me explain what happened yesterday… The district manager was inĀ again and it seemed to be a very happy visit. No one was getting ridden harshly about anything they were doing wrong. Everyone seemed to be in good spirits and things were going very well. After roughly 2.5 […]

Written on Tuesday, September 13th, 2016 at 8:40am || Filed under: Struggles || 1 Comment

So Overwhelmed.

… I was going to write an entry about the emotional past two days but I decided it was best to keep this unsaid publicly, just in case. I’ve been a mess the past two days regarding work and everything to do with working. Mike talked some sense into me but I’m still not convinced. […]

Written on Monday, August 15th, 2016 at 1:50pm || Filed under: Struggles || No Comments

Brain Dump – Part 2

It is that time once again… I need to do another brain dump. It’s crazy how much has been running through my mind these past few days and I didn’t think to come to write about it. Well, here I am, another post that is going to be all over the place. I’m manic so […]

Written on Tuesday, July 12th, 2016 at 6:29pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Struggles || 3 Comments

Motivated but Lazy.

That describes my mood to a tee! I am motivated to get some things done but so incredibly lazy and not willing to do anything. Ugh! It starts with the fact that I haven’t done anything today minus tell Mikhail to drink his Miralax and read organizing and cleaning blogs. It started on Thursday. Mikhail […]

Written on Saturday, July 2nd, 2016 at 10:31pm || Filed under: Home/Cooking, Struggles || No Comments