All Out Of Sorts

I’ve been a mess. This past week has been hell. It’s all been brought upon myself. If I didn’t care about things, life would be so much easier. This is going to be a brain dump post because I simply cannot comprehend a thought that surpasses as something logical. First official week of summer This […]

Written on Thursday, June 15th, 2017 at 7:00pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Parenting || 1 Comment

Ticking Clock

The clock is ticking. Do you hear it? Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. The time is running out. I have so much to think about. Is he not ready? Or is he? Am I the one holding him back from going further? We have two weeks. Time will tell how things go. I don’t know if […]

Written on Wednesday, May 24th, 2017 at 7:59pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

Feeling Ill

I have been so ill lately. It’s an illness I can’t quite pinpoint. Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday were all days I ended up throwing up before work. I was perfectly fine on Tuesday even though I had a very high agenda schedule to do that day. Something at work, this job, that job, any job […]

Written on Saturday, April 29th, 2017 at 3:12pm || Filed under: Parenting, Work || 1 Comment

Too-Soon Weekly Recap

I’m writing this a day early. I got antsy. I really don’t even have a lot to write about but I wanted to write this while everything was fresh in my mind. This week was pretty good. It was my first week on the floor by myself. I was cleared to be by myself on […]

Written on Friday, February 24th, 2017 at 3:42pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Parenting, Work || No Comments

One Week.

I have one week before beginning the next chapter of my life. Today starts day one of zen. Heh. I kinda have to laugh at that because today has been anything but zen. I woke up this morning with a chip on my shoulder and just crabby! I was under the impression the boys would […]

Written on Sunday, January 22nd, 2017 at 1:17pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

2016 – A year in review.

2016 was pretty crazy. Normally on the last few days of the year, I write about my resolutions proposed accomplishments that I achieved throughout the year but I decided to add little something to my annual post. I want to look back and write some of the things that happened this year. I am going […]

Written on Friday, December 30th, 2016 at 4:21pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Anxiety, Coloring, Life with Bipolar, Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || 2 Comments

Something New

I’m sick of always coming here talking about how anxious I am about work. Today I’m not going to do that. I am going to talk about other things going on in my life. So buckle up, we’re doing something new today. Nick’s Birthday Nick’s birthday went well. He had a sleepover with his best […]

Written on Tuesday, October 25th, 2016 at 10:30am || Filed under: Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments

Another Worry

Once again, I’m worrying. Nothing new, right? I’m always worrying. It’s annoying how much I worry. At this point, people just go “Oh, Nik is worrying again. Jeez, she needs to take a chill pill.” Ugh! Here’s what’s on my mind tonight… Inventory So, as most of you know, we had inventory at the store […]

Written on Saturday, October 15th, 2016 at 9:29pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Ohana, Parenting || No Comments

Ups and Downs

It has been two weeks since I wrote an actual entry. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs since then. Lack of sleep or lack of sanity may have played a factor in both. School Stuff So the boys have officially been in school two¬†full weeks. Actually, they’ve had a total of six (five, […]

Written on Saturday, September 10th, 2016 at 12:31pm || Filed under: Ohana, Parenting || No Comments