Ticking Clock

The clock is ticking. Do you hear it? Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. The time is running out. I have so much to think about. Is he not ready? Or is he? Am I the one holding him back from going further? We have two weeks. Time will tell how things go. I don’t know if […]

Written on Wednesday, May 24th, 2017 at 7:59pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

Suicidal Thoughts.

When are suicidal thoughts considered serious? I ask because we’ve been brought into this whole new world that I wasn’t ready for. Let me rewind back to Wednesday of last week. It was a normal day. Everything was fine. I got the boys ready for school. They left and I got ready for work. I […]

Written on Tuesday, May 16th, 2017 at 1:19pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Life with Bipolar, Parenting, Struggles || 1 Comment

Feeling Ill

I have been so ill lately. It’s an illness I can’t quite pinpoint. Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday were all days I ended up throwing up before work. I was perfectly fine on Tuesday even though I had a very high agenda schedule to do that day. Something at work, this job, that job, any job […]

Written on Saturday, April 29th, 2017 at 3:12pm || Filed under: Parenting, Work || 1 Comment

Too-Soon Weekly Recap

I’m writing this a day early. I got antsy. I really don’t even have a lot to write about but I wanted to write this while everything was fresh in my mind. This week was pretty good. It was my first week on the floor by myself. I was cleared to be by myself on […]

Written on Friday, February 24th, 2017 at 3:42pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Parenting, Work || No Comments

One Week.

I have one week before beginning the next chapter of my life. Today starts day one of zen. Heh. I kinda have to laugh at that because today has been anything but zen. I woke up this morning with a chip on my shoulder and just crabby! I was under the impression the boys would […]

Written on Sunday, January 22nd, 2017 at 1:17pm || Filed under: Parenting || No Comments

2016 – A year in review.

2016 was pretty crazy. Normally on the last few days of the year, I write about my resolutions proposed accomplishments that I achieved throughout the year but I decided to add little something to my annual post. I want to look back and write some of the things that happened this year. I am going […]

Written on Friday, December 30th, 2016 at 4:21pm || Filed under: Accomplishments, Anxiety, Coloring, Life with Bipolar, Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || 2 Comments

Something New

I’m sick of always coming here talking about how anxious I am about work. Today I’m not going to do that. I am going to talk about other things going on in my life. So buckle up, we’re doing something new today. Nick’s Birthday Nick’s birthday went well. He had a sleepover with his best […]

Written on Tuesday, October 25th, 2016 at 10:30am || Filed under: Love, Ohana, Parenting, Struggles || No Comments

Another Worry

Once again, I’m worrying. Nothing new, right? I’m always worrying. It’s annoying how much I worry. At this point, people just go “Oh, Nik is worrying again. Jeez, she needs to take a chill pill.” Ugh! Here’s what’s on my mind tonight… Inventory So, as most of you know, we had inventory at the store […]

Written on Saturday, October 15th, 2016 at 9:29pm || Filed under: Anxiety, Ohana, Parenting || No Comments

Ups and Downs

It has been two weeks since I wrote an actual entry. I’ve had a lot of ups and downs since then. Lack of sleep or lack of sanity may have played a factor in both. School Stuff So the boys have officially been in school two¬†full weeks. Actually, they’ve had a total of six (five, […]

Written on Saturday, September 10th, 2016 at 12:31pm || Filed under: Ohana, Parenting || No Comments

Twas The Night Before…

Twas the night before school started, when all through the town, the parents were cheering… It was a riotous sound! By 9, kids were washed and tucked into bed… Where memories of homework filled them with dread! New pencils, new folders, new notebooks too! New teachers, new friends…Their anxiety grew! The parents just giggled when […]

Written on Wednesday, August 31st, 2016 at 9:19am || Filed under: Ohana, Parenting || No Comments