Yesterday was a huge day for me. (I’m not even going to bother talking about this weekend, because well, quite frankly not a whole lot happened. Went to Mike’s company picnic. Got a $15 gift card for Starbucks, then went out to dinner with Mike, his parents, and the boys. Mike ate too much causing [...]
I’ve been in this rut lately. I’ve traveled down a dark tunnel, and I have no clue how long it continues for, or whether or not it even ends. I can’t see forward, or behind me, I can’t see anything for that matter… What the hell am I talking about? Do you ever feel in [...]
I’m sorry for the fact that after four years, I still am surprised to hear you say you love me with all your heart. … for the constant need to hear over and over what you truely feel because I just cannot believe someone in my life truely cares. … for doubting that you’ll stay [...]
I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t purposely lead a stressful life. I don’t choose to be unhappy, or stressed, etc. I just have the most random, fucked up bull shit happen to me, and THAT is what I cannot deal with. All these past weeks, I’ve been busting my ass to try to [...]
I’ve come to the conclusion – I REALLY need to stop listening to what my Mom has to say. I call her, looking for guidance, looking for acceptance, help, or comfort. SOMETHING. The conversation starts off fine, and then I open my mouth a little bit, and it’s too late. I tell her what’s going [...]
I’ve been talking for some time about how I’ve just been absolutely horrible lately. I don’t know what “normal” is anymore. I don’t know what it feels like to go through a day and not get so frustrated that I want to throw things or scream at the top of my lungs. I don’t go [...]
Omg, I’ve had a roller coaster ride of the past few days. Its been ridiculous. Mike is doing fairly well. He’s just patiently awaiting the results for his biopsy to see what the outcome is. Thank you all for the well wishes. I won a new coffee maker today. ^_^ That was fucking awesome. A [...]
As you lovely folks can see, I have made a wonderful new theme for Eternal Amour. Doesn’t it look beautiful. There wasn’t a whole lot to it. I basically scribbled some, used some brushes, found a perfect font, and coded. It was one of those scenarios where you’re sitting around, and get an awesome idea [...]
Alright folks, its that time once again to write an extremely random, pointless entry. I don’t have too much to talk about on one specific topic, and I feel the need to update. So, what has been going on with me since the last entry? I’ve calmed down (just a little bit.) Just forewarn you [...]
I’m sitting here, completely amazed with the people who are around me on a daily basis. My family. My friends. My loved ones. My enemies… No one knows who I really am; except for maybe Mike. Even he might not understand what I go through every day and every night. Today, after having a very [...]
My name is Nikkole. I usually go by Nikki. I'm a mom of two boys. I'm enaged to Mike, who I believe is my soulmate. Twenty-five years old, You'd think I'd have "what I want to do when I grow up" figured out by now. Apparently, I have better plans. My life consists of two kids, a man I love, bipolar disorder, too many hobbies to count, and a roller coaster ride of emotions. I'm an open book. I'm honest and straight forward. I don't tend to ever hold back what needs to be said, or what I think and feel. I offend people, but that's what happens when you show people the truth. I'd say take a look at my About Me pages and Learn More...?
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