No, I didn’t win a grand sweepstakes of sorts… this is a different trip. Mike might be leaving for Vegas to work at the warehouse out there for a few days/weeks/more?. We have no idea. We have absolutely NO clue what’s going on with this. All we know is, “when you’re better, they want you out there.” Whether that means they think that he will be better on Monday when he was given permission to return  to work or what. We’re unsure. We don’t know how long he would be leaving for, we don’t know when he would be leaving. We really don’t know anything at all. And because of all these unknowns, my anxiety has been through the roof. I have been so anxious about everything going on, the unknowns, the worry about dealing with the kids without him, not seeing him for lord knows how long.

I’ve been trying to put on a very brave face. Smile when I need to. Shake my head and agree to what is going on. Be supportive, ya know? I want to be as supportive that I can be. It’s really hard. I am hoping that I’m as strong and brave that I need to be for as long as he’s home and then if I crack let it be after he leaves… Let me crack and cry and break down after he leaves so he doesn’t see it. Doesn’t witness it. I don’t want him to miss this opportunity to prove how well he does his job. He was specifically requested by the manager of Vegas warehouse to pick Mike, specifically Mike, over all the other warehouses to do their job.

George is there until the 19th and so they’re hoping that Mike gets out there before George comes home so George can show Mike all the ropes to everything as to what is going on.

Just be strong.

Just be brave.

Smile.

Support him.

That’s all I can do, right? He will be fine. I will be fine. I can do this. I will do this. I will do this for him. I promised to support him no matter what he did… here’s a good example of me having to live up to my promises.

I’m just scared.

I’ll keep you up to date as soon as I find out what’s going on. Wish me luck, everyone.

written on at 9:43 pm || Filed under: Anxiety

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